all.i.need.is.him

2006-07-21T13:35:00.000-07:00

okie. tnyt is gna be a blast fer me andd ma gurls. confirm drunk. cinfirm total madness. just cnt wait ta mt em in da evenin thn head fer cafe iguana fer dinner before mos. finally legalization is hittin on me. nxt tue gna take license. yesyes. im so mad abt it. i cnt wait i must admit. im gna be da happiest gurl tmr!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-07-18T00:38:00.000-07:00

okie. sure da wk passes really fast. hahah. dis sat at mos. hmmm. still plannin whether ta celebrate there or phunk. confused creature. mos drinks re mre expensive bt much better crowd while phunk drinks re dirt cheap bt crowd aint tht happenin. okie. i've decided. MOS. those who wana turn up cn come. those who think its expensive, just sit outside da clubb. deal. aint gna let ppl's decision get me stressed up. SO PPL, I'LL SEE YA'LL DIS SAT AT SMOOVE ARD ELEVEN AITES!! hahah. cnt wait ta turn eighteen. nxt TUESDAY im gg ta SSDC alrdy. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeetttttttttttttttttttttttttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-07-15T23:50:00.000-07:00

ma gawd. last night at butter factory really sucks a hell of a fcuken time. luckily ppl who clubbed w me was happenin enuff. ahahah. cyn andd chloe, dnt uu just hte dos wannabes?? arghh. disgusted w da way they dance. totally. wrk was hectic laz night. so many ppl flooded asylum. wrked ma ass off. was a lil pissed at wrk bt forgt it. shant mention names. hahah. anws, wrkin tnyt agn. mtg baby shawna at bugis before wrk. shall blogg real sn agn andd yeahh, I REGRETTED NOT GG TA MOS LAZ NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-07-13T03:54:00.000-07:00

okie. just simply another ten days before i turn eighteen. dnt knw if i shd feel happy abt it. ive bn thru quite a handful of stages alrdy. legalization fer me seemed ta hv pass me by a long time alrdy. hahah. life hv bn da same. just tht ive bn clubbg w darlin alissa, geena, chormun, shawna, nadia andd boys. freaken fun coz they re always gettin high!!! love chillin w da babes. its sort of our daily routine nw ta clubb tog evry wed. mtg mummy tmr fer lunch. she's gettin me ma new hp!! wooooweeeet!!! heheh. bt i wana ask her ta pay ma bike in a few mths ta come. ahahah. dnt knw wadds da plan also. anws, dbl o tnyt w yani. gna gt maslf wasted agn!!!

2006-07-08T05:00:00.000-07:00

ma gawd. da wk's endin once agn. i just cnt keep up w time. in fact, no one cn. hah. wed @ cheekys was happenin. mt shawna andd co. smone whom i hvnt mt up fer ages was there too. yuppyupp, ma darlin sung!! miss her so much. so happy ta see her. dint drink much. went hme. worn out. crashed. bt thurs @ dbl o was even better. hahahah. only lisha understands. had so much fun andd gt a lil high. drinks re so fcuken cheap la!! asrul andd he was there. met sm of ma old colleagues who re still wrkin at babyface. apparently da fat ass is still wrkg dere. motherf**ker. hpe he starts sneezin aft i curse him. thn may he fall into a pit of dung. heheh. evil me bt aint givin a hoot ta it. im stil hm nw tho its alrdy eight. plannin ta mt lisha at ten. thk we'll be out clubbg tnyt ONCE AGN. miss cyn andd chloe. gt ta mt up w em sn. ooh yeas, was gd seein gyl laz nyt. chatted a lil. am happy thgs re fine nw betw us. at least, we've cleared da air. andd ma bestie is comin bk frm da states!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! she'll be here fer ma bday. so damn excited abt it. countin dwn ta eleven days. am waitin fer arrival FRANCESCA DANIELLE KHOR!!!!!

2006-07-04T10:28:00.000-07:00

new wk agn. cnt believe days passed me by just like tht. argghhh... one million andd one things ta do. countdown begins!!! 20 more days before im legalized!!! weeeet. had a wondeful dinner anitta. asylum does really serve gd stuff. might be wrkin dere agn. heheh. da money's gd shit. cnt stand bummin ard so long. so freaken borin at hm evryday. went ta bumblebeez fer awhile. andd yes, i wana complain da fucken limo company. nv turn on meter andd they charge people at their own rate. wadd da fuck. 30 bucks ta go telok blangah cres andd choa chu kang. knn. tryin ta cheat our money. luckily im nt dumb enuff ta take da cab. i'll make sure LTA hears abt dis. dnt knw hw many people they con alrdy. complain til they lose their fucken license. damn turned off. ladies nyt tmr. shawna wana clubb. bt i wana clubb on thurs instead........... dbl o!!!!!! bt she insists on me gg. shall see hw la. ma energy's almost used up. hah. nd ta hit da bed nw. ma eyes re closin. shall update sn.

2006-07-01T23:47:00.000-07:00

hvnt bn bloggin fer days. feelin a lil lost alrdy. hahah. anws ma holidays begins!!!!! woooweeet. 3wks frm nw. ends one day before ma bday. evrythg's all gd. so much ta blog before da wk ends. okie wokie. lets start frm wed. dint wana clubb bt ended up at cheekys. was pretty fun tho. met chormun, alissa, geena andd boys. sajiv was there too. dint drink much. still worried tht i'll faint again. hah. funny mann. come ta think of it. had a ride hm frm a frnn. thurs at dbl o was nt tht bad. bt pretty crowded aft 1. wadd cn i say?? its dbl o on a thurs night. mostly malays bt i enjoyed myslf w nurin. wished lisha, steph andd shawna could be there too. surprisingly, they played unfaithful by rihanna when we just arrived. ma new favorite. denn here comes da wkend........................................fri at phuture. had ta go coz i was smone's bday cake. hahah. music was bad til aft 2. i heard ma fav song andd i went crazy. heh yesyes. hips dont lie. went hm fer supper before he sent me back. andd i've decided tht mayb i shd nt get sp. 125z or x1 sounds inviting. anws, i shd set all dis aside first. concentrate on gettin ma class 2B denn talk abt wadd bike ta gt. ima gg crazy abt hvg a bike andd all la! definitely nd a brk aft clubbg so much da whole wk. was at ma cousin's plc celebrating his bday. dinner was rated 3 stars outta 5. bt da cake was 4 andd a half outta 5. slack til abt almost 12 before heading hm. watched england vs portugal. so upset tht rhooney was given a red card. expected, eng lost due ta da penalty kick. eng dint had their elite players on ground. guess dis yr's world cup is gna be given ta germany or portugal. coz brazil is out too. as fer today, im CLUBBG ONCE AGAIN!!! gg tunnel nw lisha, alv andd ida. mtg em all abt 10plus. ma gawd. i dnt understand hw come i cn clubb so much. i need a job nw!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so i cn earn extra bucks andd cut down on clubbg. haha. excuses bt i really wana wrk...... im so boorrrreedddd at hm!!!!

2006-06-26T20:23:00.000-07:00

im totally exhausted. hvg ta come schh everyday just sucks a hell of a time. smmore i've ta travel at least one andd a half hrs a to andd fro so i waste three hrs in total ta just come ta schh per day. no one knws hw tired i am. argghh.. anws, im totally pissed off w him!!! he wnt on his phone andd i cnt gt him. whatever. i think we shd just walk our own way. no pt carryin on being tog if things wnt wrk out..... i rather be unfaithful if thts da case.

Story of my life Searching for the right But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul cause it seems that wrong
really loves my company Hes more than a man and this is more than love
the reason that the sky is blue the clouds are rolling in because I'm gone again and to him I just can't be true and I know that he knows I'm unfaithful and it kills him inside to know that I am happy with some other guy I can see him dying I don't wanna do this anymore I don't wanna be the reason why Everytime I walk out the door I see him die a little more inside I don't wanna hurt him anymore I don't wanna take away his life I don't wanna be... a murderer I feel it in the air as I'm doing my hair preparing for another date A kiss up on my cheek As he reluctantly asks if I'm gonna be out late I say I won't be long Just hanging with the girls A lie i didn't have to tell Because we both know where I'm about to go and we know it very well cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful and it kills him inside to know that I am happy with some other guy I can see him dying I don't wanna do this anymore I don't wanna be the reason why Everytime I walk out the door I see him die a little more inside I don't wanna hurt him anymore I don't wanna take away his life I don't wanna be... a murderer Our love His trustI might as well take a gun and put it to his head Get it over with I don't wanna do this Anymore (anymore) I don't wanna do this anymore I don't wanna be the reason why Everytime I walk out the door I see him die a little more inside I don't wanna hurt him anymore I don't wanna take away his life I don't wanna be... a murderer (a murderer)

2006-06-23T04:13:00.000-07:00

gt da shock in ma life. was admitted into da hsp dis mrn fer excess alcohol. freaked me out in da hsp. first time admittin into it was totally horrifyin. was in da observation ward fer 2hrs before i was discharged. poor daddy had ta accompany me all da way. i swear i'll nv drink mre than 1 jug frm nw on. really a bad experience fer me. andd yeah, nv mix ur alcohol up. jz die of alcohol poisonin. come ta think of it, its a lesson fer me actually. coz frm nw on i wnt be clubbg much anymre.

2006-06-20T10:38:00.000-07:00

finally im feelin much better coz da fever's almost gone bt startin ta feel emo. so many thgs gg on in ma head. i really dnt knw wadd ta do. cn anyone out dere guide me along?? i feel so lost andd scared. nt bcoz he's out of twn. its another matter. no one knws. just me andd me andd me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im confused, worn-out andd very very afraid at da same time. i cnt even define ma problem properly. so many events took place recently. i cn handle no mre. i wana give up bt hangin on is ma only solution. i aint gt a choice. i dnt wana mk a wrong choice. im nt fickle-minded. fuck la!! im stressed out. think only dis song cn express wadd i wana say. da lyric tells it all.

one more kiss could be the best thing
one more lie could be the worst
and all these thoughts are never resting and you're not something i deserve
in my head there's only you now
this world falls on me
in this world, there's real and make believe
this seems real to me

you love me, but you dont know who i am
i'm torn between this life i lead
and where i standyou love me, but you don't know who i am
so let me go let me go

i dream we head to what i hope for and i turn my back on loving you
how could this love be a good thing when i know what i'm going through
in my head there's only you now this world falls on me
in this world, there's real and make believe this seems real to me
you love me, but you dont know who i am i'm torn between this life i lead
and where i stand

you love me, but you dont know who i am so let me go, just let me go
no matter how hard i try i cant escape these things inside
i know, i know but all the pieces fall apart
you will be the only one who knows who knows

you love me, but you dont know who i am i'm torn between this life i lead
and where i stand, you love me, but you don't know who i am so let me go just let me go
you love me, but you dont you love me, but you dont you love me, but you dont know who i am you love me, but you dont you love me, but you dont you love me, but you dont know me

2006-06-18T08:27:00.000-07:00

back frm twn nt long ago. was out w cyn, her bf andd baby. cyn shopped fer dad's present bt i dint had ta coz i will b buyin dinner fer daddy another day. hah. lookin ard fer new digi cam andd mp3. wanted ta buy da new sony mp3 bt stil decidin shd i or nt. baby thinks im ovr-spendin on stuffs i dnt nd bt dis time round is diff. im gg bk ta sch!!!! weird right?? ma freaken lecturer came ovr ma plc andd asked me whyy hvnt i been turnin up fer da past 3wks. simply bcoz i wana quit sch bt he dint gt da msg. nw ma aunt is makin noise. die die wants me bk in schh. arggghhhh....... ohh wells. mayb i shd since im doin nth right nw. yst was FANTASTIC ta da max i must admit. benny benassi is brilliant. coz da moment i stepped into da main arena, he was spinnin 'satisfaction' bt smoove was even better. dj rattle spinned as usual. so many ppl. congested like hell bt managed ta find a spot tht fitted all of us in jz nicely. was at mamma lucia before liquid denn headed ta mos in da ltr part of da night. liquid sucks mann. music wasnt tht gd. crowd was a lil funny compared ta da previous times i went dere. mayb we were early. had bak kut teh at mohd sultan ta end da wonderful night w da gurlies. really had much fun w em. anws, am feelin so sick right nw. sore throat + da comin fever = thats it. baby so worried. da fever came while hvg dinner at bigO. ta mk thgs worse, da food wasnt wadd it said it was ta be. nt up ta standard. mayb i wasnt feelin gd thts whyy. walked a lil mre ta chk out da gadgets before headin hme. monday blues agn. ma gawd. i jz hate ta start a fresh new wk whn im sick...............................

2006-06-16T00:41:00.000-07:00

days hvnt bn any better. he's bn ignorin me fer days. honestly, im doubtin da fact tht he still regards me as his gf. im plagued with depression. startin ta feel da hatred fer guys. arggghhhhh... fucken hell. i shd stop thinkin abt it fer nw. i nd space ta breathe aft all. last night at dbl o was dupa fun. had abt 5 jugs ta gt me andd lisha wasted. hahahah. imagine both of us on da way back?? yesyes. she pukin into da bag repeatedly. damn hilarious. we seriously did njoy. mt a number of frnns dere. music was superb. a lil over crowded tho. bt stil managed ta squeeze into da dancefloor ta groove. da only thgy tht spoilt ma mood was bummin into tht cheapskate motherfuckin ex bf i had. really killed ma night fer awhile. saw his bestfrnn first. tryin ta pick up so girl by sayin he hasnt bn attached fer a couple of mths. wadd bullshit. denn nxt thg i knw, saw S makin out w sm minah on da dancefloor. double turn-off. ma ipod is still w him. he jz wanted ta "F n G" his typical way of gettin sm girls ta slpp w him. so glad i left him. cnt even believe i could hv tolerate his nonsense fer almost 3mths. totally disgusted whnever i think abt it. nt bcos im jealous or tryin ta be a wet blanket, bt ppl who has seen me with him come runnin ta tell me wadd a fucker he is yet i chose nt ta believe em. regrtted a lil bt dere's nth i cn do. wadd's done cn be undone. learnt ma lesson. once bitten, twice shy. hpefully i wnt any guys like him again. scares da wits out of me mann. tnyt mtg cyn. clubbin at zouk. bn clubbin quite a lot dis wkend. nd ta cut dwn. ma acct's drainin real fast. hah. i need ta save up fer ma bike license!!!!!

2006-06-14T16:12:00.000-07:00

bk frm da club. had an extremely outrageous clubbin nyt w da gurlies. frm cheekys ta bumble bee ta devils bar. tell me hw nt ta gt tired?? had a couple of drinks bt aint high at all!! effort wasted. damn!! nvtheless, njoyed myslf. devils was so packed tht i could hardly breathe. nearly died of excess co2 earlier on. andd yeap, as usual guys tryin ta be funny. i swear if he had talk ta me agn, i would have snap at him straight into his face. cnt keep his hands ta himself. shawna was literally molested. fucker. pissed ta da max. waddever mat. bumble bee pretty happenin. music was gd. so was da crowd. aint rowdy. anws, shd come ta a halt fer clubbin dis wk bt sat is a must go club w cyn andd chloe. need ta hit da club w em. cnt wait fer da wkend!!!! benny benassi......................here i come!!!!!!!!! weet. peace out.

2006-06-12T15:42:00.000-07:00

its alrdy 6.40 yet im still unable ta go ta bed. ma gawd. ma eye bags re gna get worse i bet. went ta mt cyn andd jared in da evenin fer dinner at tbp. ate macs andd denn headed ta twn ta mt stephy. walked ard far east. so wanted ta gt a new pair of jeans bt chances of gettin a nice one was zero. walked all da way ta topshop ta find em closed. argghh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! freaken pissed off. went ta swensens. had sm finger food. fried mushrooms were extremely powerful. *baby, its gna be better thn ur magic mushrooms in bali mann. heheh. whn sddnly i had da cravin of gettin a new camera. was on da verge of buyin it bt it was alrdy ten. dint had da chance ta. wasted. i dnt care. tmr i'll go ta daddy's shop ta gt one. by hook or by crook. dint mt up w baby tdy. he had family dinner. stil nt ready enough ta mt his parents yet. guess im still lackin of CONFIDENCE. funny thgy is, he met ma dad under a very unexpected circumstance. luckily daddy seemed cool abt us being together. am glad ta knw tht. anws, was job huntin in twn. think im only suitable fer da nightlife kinda job.im gna mk bartendin ma forte. i must andd i can!!!!! bt i hate memorizin da different kind of drinks. *sex on da beach laa. singapore sling laa. cosmopolitan laa. B-52 shooter laa. mojoito laa. screamin orgasm laa. zombie laa. pina colada laa. frozen margarita laa. bloody mary laa. long island tea laaaa......................andd da list goes on and on andd on.*
so stressful. smmore evry night hv ta wash evrythg. take out bar mat. wipe da bottles. keep da bar clean. bt then agn, its a bartender's job so i shdnt b complainin much if i wana b an outstandin barmaid. hahaha. pretty happy w what im doin thou im nt wrkin nw. hah. am findin a new job. its gotta b night life. wana stop stretchin ma hands out andd ask fer money. hahahah. i really shd stop. im turnin eighteen mann!!! in 32 days time. cnt believe im bn livin ma past seventeen ++ yrs like tht!!! hw amazin time flies. so many things i'e yet ta try out.
hpefully dis wkend will b a blast. ooh man. wadd am i sayin?? its only tues yet im talkin abt fri andd sat. most likely MOS dis sat. its benny benassi we re talkin abt. bt gues much we will end up at da rnb side. no surprise. ive always bn da vr rnb hiphop scene kind of person. music ta me is like tea. rnb ma base. trance ma sugar. dependin on hw much mood i'm game fer it tht night. will b with cyn. her bf has gt ta wrk. hah. girl's night-out. da boys gt no say in this!!! wahoooooooo!!!!!!!

2006-06-05T08:11:00.000-07:00

yesyes, tell me abt it. its bn a yr since i last blogged. hmmm. many things have pretty much changed, in a way or another. jz quit sch andd am nw wrkin. simply coz i cnt stand ma lecturer. aint teachin lk hw he shd b doin so. anws, i was nv da stdy kind so doesnt matter if i quit or nt. no longer at babyface no mre. manager sucks big time. horrible monster. scorn him ta da max i cn ever. he's microbes. ARGGHHHH!!! in short, he's a fucker. cnt b bothered anymre since i've left abt three wks alrdy. ma poor baby had ta put up w his irradical nonsense fer almost two wks. nvtheless, i swear ta god whn i go bk ta collect ma pay, im so gna throw tht rag(ma uniform) on him. he deserves it. evryone scorns him. hah. wkend was fruitful coz i gt da chance ta mt up w ma old bestfrnns on sat. who else cn i b talkin abt?? cyn and rebecca. chloe came as well. so glad ta hv bn able ta mt up w em. its has bn a yr since we last hanged out. so much ta talk abt. went out w luke andd khalid aft tht. watched 'almost love'. i must its one of da better movies frm da koreans. met cyn on sun agn ta pass her stuffs bk ta her. went fer dinner andd ended up watchin movie agn. 'the nun' was plainly shit. luke kept makin fun at da fact tht i'll shiver whnever i watch horror shows. mean thgy bt still, i love him. hahah. supposed ta b out w em nw bt nt able ta go out. aint feelin ta well. monday blues plus im havin da real bad cramps. hpefully tmr turns out ta b better............

me andd stephy in twn shoppin. i just love spendin quality time together!!!